Halloween.

When you saw pumpkin, what is in your mind?
For me, a day of Halloween.
 How I wish I was there to celebrate the Halloween, but I'm not staying at UK anymore. (Hey, Here is Malaysia!)
Alright. Alright!


For me, I found it was a silent day.
Meanwhile, I found another special of [it], and I did something for [it] but failed. :(
(yet, still I do not plan to give up!)
Do you realize it even if you're busy or else there?
I could feel it, truly feel how the SILENT of it.
I know. still I feel frustrated.
Some frame vaguely keep surround on my mind, whispers how much that I thought of it.
I jot it down. 
I repent.

Short post as I wish to keep in my mind. 
 by her.

下雨天。

窗外又开始下起雨，

下雨天了 而 我好想你，

不敢打给你，因为我找不到原因。

不知道你会在哪里？

没你的消息，让人好窒息。

我才知道思念一个人是多么地难受。

下雨天。这份宁静。

装一份思念，寄向不知方向的远方。

下雨天，我沉思着。

下雨天对着天空，思念你。

下雨天想象自己站在海边 想念你。

下雨天 の 思念， 窗外的雨不停的下着，

我的思绪也想那丝丝的细雨，随风飘飞，带着我对你的思念，飘洒着，

我将我所有想对你说的话，都悄悄地告诉雨儿，让它告诉你，我是多么の想你，你听到雨儿敲打你玻璃的声音了吗？

思念是杯苦咖啡，就算加再多的糖，没有很好的搅拌也是苦味。

下雨天，心炫总被雨声拨动。
思念是一种病，是一杯苦咖啡，是一种忧伤。 

 A day that I know how I feel for 『 it 』.

Just like the Rain drop.

The moment. of {it}.

by her.

The Scene. I remember every time I take train.

The train. I recall how 'speed' of it.

Today, mom request me to accompany her in order to visit the Home Deco exhibition (KLCC) that she wanted.

Initially, I don't have the mood but why I keep thought of [it] at home?

As mom is alone, and as a daughter I got the responsibility to go with her.

Camera is brought along as mom wish to take some photo for reference.
We took train (KTM & LRT) to the destination.


It recall back last time my mom don't have car license, when I was a kid, she used to hold my hand and we ride the public bus to the place she wanted.
She hold our hand tight just don't wish we get lost, she brought us to somewhere to buy the daily thing or our thing she need for home.
It recall back how the way she cares for us while she brought us out.
And now, my turn.
A day. Let me exchange the role with her. 
I hold her hand tight as I don't wish other push my mom while inside or outside the train,
I remind my mum do caution the doorstep while step out from train as she seldom take train.
Meanwhile, I follow her footstep as she couldn't walk that fast like last time. 
I remember last time the way she hold my hand and follow my footstep when I was a kid.
So I shouldn't rush her while other was rushing their footstep, conversely I should follow how fast my mom can follow.
I share my story with mom how the 4 years plus I took train/walk to here & there when I was a student.
I told my mom, sometime still feel that insecure when I'm alone after the bad experience I been through but still I have to move forward. I tell myself, still I have to learn tough, just like how my mom learn to be tough the way she cares for us (her family), right?


While pass by a candy shop, she told me that.
"Daughter, I still remember..."
Last time she used to hold the camera and help us (her kid) to snap the pictures with those display toy or with a nice scenery.
She remember the things she pass through before, that's why I believe she wish to keep every good moment with family.
Of course, do not forget help mom carried the things she hold on hand.
It's funny while she asked me that "It's heavy, are you sure you going to carry?"
I conjecture, all along, she used to be bear how heavy of the burden as a mom,therefore she asked me that. I stunned and smiles back as I understand.
"Mom, it's my turn to help you carry the heavy things as I can."

I knew how much of the argument I always have with my mom.
I knew sometime she feel bit jealous and kept on mentioned how my dad "sek" me more than other siblings.
Yet, I knew she is still the one who concern my family all the time she can.
I smiles. As I know.
All along, my dad be very fond of my mom & Love my mom.
Just like how much my mom Love my dad.
How much of their argument, still I believe they Love each other.

The moment we want to believe something, we suddenly see all the arguments for it, and become blind to the arguments against it. 
Sometimes love blinds us, other times it let's us see.

A day I spent my time with her, I found the meaningful moment.
Gradually I observe she is getting old, while the time she have to wear her reading glasses to read something.

She is still that cute while I hold her hand and the way she talked.

Yes! My beloved mom.
A simple way to show a care for her.

Yet, It's been a year plus I do not step into KLCC, it has changed alot that open my eye's views.
I wish I could have time to do some window shopping but time is not allow and we have to go back before the crowded.
That's all for tonight.
I'm feeling exhausted. and still I couldn't avoid [it] & I miss [it].

Today after work, I follow what is in my mind.

I follow what my mind instruct me for [it]. 

I follow how it show about.

Lone with No clue of it.

Right or wrong.
I try. and try. still I try.

Uncertainty of [it].

And  I realize.
it might mock on me.
Yes! No clue of it.
I was thinking about it.
it show the way but still I couldn't confirm it.
I should know.
Low percentage of it.
Where?
Racked brain to know more about it.

** pray **

 

 If a lie detector on your hand, how much would you dare to lie? 

I know how much of the pain and still... 

I lie, I find excuse to cover my mistake.
I don't wish this to be happen, but will someone trust me? 
I couldn't overturn since it has been happened.

Blame myself, realize that I lie, and I know I don't have the ability.

I lie but at the same time I don't feel good and feel guilty of it.
Blame myself that I do not make the sentences clear & confused it.
I lie, I excuse.
I kill myself. 
I just wish to hide the truth as I don't wish to reveal it.
But... perhaps I was wrong.
Hiding the truth, just shattered my own personality trait.
This is how bad attitude of myself.



Truth or Lie?

I learned to be smart but I'm not really strong in lie.
A lie harm myself that lose the dignity, personality.
The demons of stupidity of me. 

I'm sorry.

I should like to lie at your feet and die in your arms.  

Normally, I would take some time to search some article when I need it.

I'll try to read some useful article to elevate myself.

Of course, I wish to share here to make as records.

From what you read the title, you must doubt that I have a big belly or belly fat?

Mm mm.I blank it as this was my privacy. oops sorry.

Importantly, read what I've had share here.

How to lose belly fast? 
7 easy tips to lose stomach fat.

1) Eating Small meals.
Do not eat after 8pm as your body is entering the assimilation stage.


2) Eating unprocessed foods.
Avoid eat the processed foods. eg- Snacks, Junk foods.


3) Eating Foods Full of "Fiber".
Included cereal bars & whole grains cereals. eg- Broccoli & green beans.
Fiber - losing weight & regulating all the systems in your body.


4) Drinking water.
Drinking a minimum of 6-8 glasses a day, especially filtered water.
Drinking soda - NO! even diet sodas affect the weight loss process and prevent you from losing weight.


5) Interval Cardio.
The best way to do this.

A) Sprint.
B) Run fast for one minute and then jog or walk briskly for one minute and keep switching up.


6) Resistance Training.
Extremely helpful in assisting you to lose belly fat fast because it increases lean muscle.
Lean muscle increased, your metabolism is increased.


7) Having a positive attitude.
Thinking positively when tacking weight issues.






Lastly, Aim your target & Good Luck!

Have a goal for what you need to achieve, be consistent in what you need to do to get there and be laser focused to make it happen.

The moment of Growing.
I believes days by days, they grow higher & higher like their age. 
I believes they rely on each other while needed.
And I believes they went through how much of difficulties...
fight for the wind, the rain, the lonely night, the unpredictable fate on them.
Life is unpredictable, I believes they've learn to be tough while in the growing stage.
How much have they faced about, we don't know as we don't know what's happen in next.
While I look at this picture, something hint my mind.
Learn to enjoy in the growing stage, Learn to enjoy what we have on hand.
What if you're alone? or with another?
Still you have to grow up, from this stage to that stage.
Try to fulfill your world, fulfill your heart that you wanted.
You'll find another meaningful part while growing stage.

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Respect and honor his brilliant, spiritual, perseverance! R.I.P, Steve Jobs.

“Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.” [Steve Jobs]


Regards,

As title said, belated birthday of 2011.

Normally we do not get chance to celebrate our birthday on the exactly day.

As my birthday always held during the Chinese new year, so most of my birthday I spend alone with the CNY.

Recall back what we have did for our belated birthday celebration.
Let's see for the picture combination, Simple & easy.

Sakae Sushi, 1U.

Sakae Sushi, 1U.

She.

Me.

This was happened on February of 2011. 
(I am very busy that time therefore forget to upload it, forgive my late post.)
We went to 1U shopping mall, Sakae sushi for brunch then only went to Italiannies for high tea section. 
 Initially, we went there for chit chat ger and somehow we ordered a plate of tiramisu cake to have a try and I 'shun bian' make a wish for it.
However, we're really full on that day and topic more than that as well.
 

Make a wish for it.

I stare at the candle and wonder is the wish will come true? hmm.

Vietnam Kitchen, 1U.

The Vietnam chicken chop rice. Nom nom nom, I pretty like this food as above picture showed.

Elison Kum.

It's been a time do not meet her after she went to UK for her 'honeymoon' trip, ha-ha.
And she said jet-lag, not used to it and guess what? 
she lose her weight quite alot? wonder what she has ate at UK?
However, she feel happy for the travel trip, Good to heard that.
Oh ya, not to forget thanks for the souvenir and the things I needed. :)

special jelly cake for her belated birthday. I bought a special gift for her, a little sincerity from me to her. However it's belated, still I do not forget to wish her. Happy Belated Birthday! Warm regards,  Florence

That day, my youngest sister share me a surprise that she told me, she went to sing K with friends and she saw a picture (as below) in the Music Video sang by 林宇中 <<叫阮的名>> then only I realize my picture was selected by the organizers as good memoirs for myself & my parent.

I never expect they will select my photo, I'm extremely excited when my sister told me that.

It recalls me that last year before I went to UK for my study, I read a new from newspaper that one of the Hokkien song from Rynn Lim (林宇中) searching some photos to put in the music video- 林宇中重新演绎《叫阮的名》 征求溫馨合照拍摄MV‏.

 Without much hesitate, I found this picture, attach it and mail some words that I wish to voice out for my beloved parent and world.

It was my Diploma graduation photo. As my point of view, photo bring a story behind the scene. Parent always wish to take photo with their children to keep the best memories.

For parent, they wish to wash the photo and keep it as record. While they getting old, they will take the photos out and reminisce the memoirs as much as they have.

I recall back that it was the first time I took picture with them by formal attire(Graduation gown), it is how important of the moment, the way they feel proud when they saw their kid grown up & graduated & on the stage to receive the cert.

Guys, still remember... when you're a little kid, parent hold your hand and send you for the kinder-garden school. I bet you might shed tear, feel strange to the new place but parent wish you understand the enjoyment of study.

When you're ready for primary school, parent send you to school by carry your bag and water bottle. They knew how heavy of the books and your homework, still they remind you this & that and this proves they loved you.

They even send you for any talented class or tuition class to motivate your knowledgeable.
When the time you're ready for secondary school, they send you as well but they also wish you're ready to learn independent which you have to decide the things by yourself.

And what they was worries about, your Rebellious period, your laziness, your decision.

They knew you might start mingle with new friends, and worry you learn the thing they don't wish it happen.

They loved you, therefore argument begin with parent while your rebellious period. Still they wish to taught you the right thing as they loved you.

While you're ready for college/University stage, parent let you choose what you wish to achieve. 

They will give some guidance if you need it, still they will respect what you wish to choose.

Parent know they couldn't hold you that much more, it's time to let yourself handle it & learn how much you can.

You decide the path that you wish to have. One thing you should know, while you fall down, parent still there to hold you up but not the every-time.
While you fall down, you should learn to be tough, climb up yourself to get the thing you wanted.

Bear in mind, parent walked through the path they been before and it's your time to learn & appreciate yourself & them.
 Don't give up yourself or them. Learn to be, act to be.

Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next.

I know it was the last year, and till this year only I got it.

However, I'm truly appreciated for the organizers, although it was a photo but been selected make me feel thanksgiving. Why?
It was the first time that I wish my parent feel proud of it.
In future, I believes my parent wish I could choose a good path for myself and the loved one.
I could see my parent smile while the right moment.

Thanks GOD. 

I should admit... I'm lucky & happiness girl from this family.

They ♥ me - I ♥ them.

I found this conversation between the pencil and the eraser very inspirational. Parents are like the eraser whereas their children are the pencil. They're always there for their children, cleaning up their mistakes. Sometimes along the way... they get hurt, and become smaller (older, and eventually pass on).

Though their children will eventually find someone new (spouse), but parents are still happy with what they do for their children, and will always hate seeing their precious ones worrying, or sad.

"All my life, I've been the pencil.. And it pains me to see the eraser that is my parents getting smaller and smaller each day. 
For I know that one day, all that I'm left with would be eraser shavings and memories of what I used to have..."



This is to all the parents out there...

(Sources by website) 


P.S.- I found this article was meaningful, therefore I wish to share it here.
In the family relation, we should learn what the article share here, please bear in mind that how our parent taught us, guide us, love us all the time.
In the love relation, we should took this as a learning matters.
If you can't be a pencil to write anyone's happiness, try to be a nice eraser to remove someone's sadness.

"Beep Beep!"

This is how I feel when I received a message from 'someone'.

It is how important when you're waiting for the the special 'someone/VIP' to text you a message.

You keep on wait, wait, & waiting.

And while the phone ring.

And you know that just a message from him/her makes your heart go all smileys!

Right? No doubt, It's TRUE!

Just like the picture showed. 

I admit that I just as that girl.

The feel totally different after I received a message from the one I wish for.

Your 'good' text, I smile. 

Finally, I got [it] back. 

Keep telling myself, I should appreciate the precious of [it].

Treat myself better & also the one as I can.

Your smile is the main key for my day.

Your smile, I smile.

Omg! Thank you.
I smurfs like it.