A nightmarish.

depression = (
In fact, I slept early last night after the class.
I look at the phone and I know I couldn't do anything at the moment even if I miss [him].
In the midnight,
I been frightened from a nightmarish.
I awake with sweating face, I knew I dream of him again & again.

I stunned.
I feel terrifying what the nightmare brought for me,therefore I do not hesitate that much and text him to asked.
"Have you sleep?"
A simple dumb question.
Meanwhile, I just wish to check whether is he back to home safely? have a good sleep?
Am I disturb him unconsciously?
I know how busy he was, how he don't wish to touch for [it] anymore.
Somehow, my worrisome might seems pointless still I wish to concern him where-ever he is.
I wish to let him know.
You're not alone. I'm always here. (Just like the moon).
You just never realize.

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And this morning only I knew that Gas tank explosion happened at the Empire Gallery Subang Jaya there, the news stated it was from Starbucks coffee. 
Is this a reason why I awake from the nightmare?
However, the nightmarish make me couldn't sleep well, and I know how much still I feel insecure.


I realize I couldn't "breathe" well again without  _ _ _ .

A place I wish to lie down.
I was finding. searching. exploring. A heaven place.
A 'place' for me to shout, yell, express how much I could when I feel I'm lost / truly depression.

Currently, here is the 'place' only. :'(

by her.

The ONLY way.

Emotional
26 September 2011

I knew the last night of me, kind of abnormal.
I knew he don't like this kind of action.
I knew he will choose to ignore my existence.
It's hurt for him when I was there.
I knew how much he dislike but this is the only way I could do to meet him as I worry he might won't choose to meet me anymore. 

While driving to there, I don't feeling well but still I persist to there. 
Love conquers all, especially fear.
I wait for him and I could expect what is the consequences after that and still I wish to have a try.
While he leaving, I should chase but I couldn't. 
On that moment, I kept on coughing & puke again, I wish to drive but I can't. 
I took rest there before I leave alone.
I don't dare to expect much, purely need him at that moment.



I know I truly hurt him, that's why I wish to tell him how much I could do.
But it seems still the bad outcome from [it].
I don't wish to argue with him, I just wish to meet him personally, confess what I wish about.
Still I wish to concern him, still I wish to _____  him.
Regardless how he treat me that (good/bad/worse), still I don't give up!

I wish you to be with me but I'm trying my best to treat you well as I can.
I'd used my way to _____ you as I can.

by her.
Never doubt my ♥.

There's something missing in my heart...

Emotional

All I need is YOU. Not Alone.


Nothing special for my weekend.
I know the yesterday of me lost direction which brought him feel irritated.
I truly sorry and thanks he guide me back.
 
Today, I stay at home, wish to continue my post for myself or [it] before [it] will be 'shut down'.
While I was doing draft for my blog, blog-spot update itself, then only I realize the layout of blog-spot has changed by today, which I found it better than last time.
It's good to have some improvement therefore we could learn from it.

Meanwhile, I kept on listen some song again.
The special song that I kept repeatedly again & again. 
 I know how emo I am. Yet, still I thought about [him].
I look at my phone again & again. Wish to press some words, to text.
Yet, I feel gutless & breathless.
I'm blank in so sudden to text any word for him.
Worry that my text make him feel annoy or irritated.
How much I wish to do but I feel lost.
It's useless when I brought those no value way to show my way.
I purely wish I could encounter with him to say I'm sorry I do not mean that.
Will he listen to me again?

 Yet, my answer still the same as mine!


Before I'm going to bed, I try to press [it] but failed.









There's something missing in my heart...

I miss you. This is all I could say.

by her. 

「初戀那件小事」插曲-會有那麼一天

Music moment

Baifern & Mario 初戀那件小事 片尾曲《會有那麼一天》








By Baifern & Mario

Synopsis:
The ordinary 14 years old girl name Nam. She's unattractive or simple call... the ugly! But she had secretly in love with older guy in grade 10 name Shone, a most popular student in high-school. He's hot, perfect and generous. That's make girls in school going crazy about him, including Nam too. But she doesn't give up easily. She tried do everything to made her pretty good and outstanding in school. Because she hopes him turned around at her just once more time... (Click this - A little thing called LOVE)


A song that I wish to dedicated hereafter the movie.
It was good to listen although I don't understand Thai language,
but I cares the melody of a song.
This is why I always find some soothing song and keep it as record.
I post 3 of the you tube as it was different version, enjoy yourself.
It sound touchable, sound nice of rhythm and of course the visualize of music video.
How she confess to him, and how he show his love towards her.
A little thing called ♥ .

Florence




初恋这件小事 First_love สิ่งเล็กๆ ที่เรียกว่ารัก

Love
初恋这件小事 First_love สิ่งเล็กๆ ที่เรียกว่ารัก


Whoa! The power of YouTube.
YouTube is able to extend their tube time more than 1 hour, therefore we no need to click this clip, click that and wait for the loading brows-ING.

I saw this link, therefore I wish to share it here.
It was the Thailand Love Story movie, most of the feedback 'thumb up' that it was nice movie.

Boys & Girls,
If you have time and curious of the Thai Love Story movie, c.lick it.
Giving in my curiosity, I'll start browsing & watch for it.
I trust it'll be a touchable feel movie.
It might reminisce back... your first love, the way you trying to seek attention from the first love.
Every little thing you did for your first love.
A little thing called love.
You found it silly but you may found it tasty.
Fruitful memoirs of your first love.
Just like a bite taste of the 'Apple'.
Sour & Sweet.

P.S.- I've had finished the movie. While watching this movie, I thought of the 'S' again.
My heart was 'shaking', I'd 'thumb up' for this awesome movie,it did motivated me that Love can conquer all. Especially fear.
I shouldn't give up when I found the one that I loved.
Yes! I hope _________ , the man that I wait for.
ℒℴѵℯ

will [it]? :'(

Florence